So, back in January I said that I wanted to launch a blog. It sounded all good back then. Like, I had days set that I wanted to post a blog, I had topics ready and everything. But then something happened. What happened you ask? Life is what happened.
Can I be real with y'all for a moment? Ok, so I'm twenty three and at the end of this year I will be celebrating my twenty fourth birthday. Exciting right? Yeah, but why does it feel like I have yet to accomplish a damn thang. I have family and friends that tell me all the time," Bre, you're twenty three with five published books, and more in the works. You have accomplished a lot." And I'm just like okayyy anddd lol.
I have two friends, two of my best friends that I have watched walk across the stage and receive their degrees and I am so proud of them. Y'all I promise I am. When I talk to one of my friends that just recently graduated back in May, I guess I get a dose of reality that getting a degree doesn't make you feel complete or whole all the time. I know that we're two different people, with two different paths, but here it is me thinking that once I get my degree everything wrong or off track in my life will be made right. Like, my twenties will then come together and everything will all make sense once I get that damn degree. Well, my friend has opened my eyes to the real, and she doesn't even know it. I promise I'm going somewhere with this, just hang on lol.
They say if you ever want to make God laugh, tell him YOUR plans. And I just bet that God thinks my whole life is a comedy show or something, lol. I say that because I'm a planner. By a certain age, I had planned for x, y, and z to have happened by now. When I got detoured from my original plans, I had to come up with a back up, and now y'all I'm really just winging it now, but that's ok.
I wanted my degree by a certain age, but that didn't happen. I wanted to be in my career field by now, but that hasn't happened. I wanted to be in a strong committed relationship by now, and on the road to marriage, that shit definitely hasn't happen, lmao.
But I will tell you what has happened. I'm still in school, not ideal, but I'm working towards my degree. I haven't given up, and that's all that matters right now. I may not be in my career field, but God has thrown other things out there for me to do that I would have never seen myself doing. For one, I'm an author, and to say it out loud or to tell someone is crazy to me. I'm still so modest about it, and a person will have to ask me about my books before I just say "Hey I'm an author, want to read my book?" but I'm working on that. And secondly, I'm a web designer, crazy right? A year ago if someone would have told me that I would be an author and a web designer, and be very successful at it, I would have died laughing. And though I'm not on the road to marriage, because things are still fairly new, I am in a strong committed relationship. He loves me how I should and deserved to be loved and that's all that matters to me right now.
Things happen for a reason, and we may learn what those reasons are later on down the line, and we may not, and that's ok too. What I've learned and still learning is that our twenties is a decade for; learning ourselves, messing up, learning from our mess ups, growth in all aspects of the word, losing friends, gaining new friends (which is ok), love lost, love found, break downs and build ups and so much more.
Being apart of the twenty something club, is rough at first, but then you get the hang of it. There will be times that you will feel pressured and down and depressed, because you see your peers out "living their best life," but that's not your life so you can't get caught up in that. It's ok not to be ok all the time, and it's definitely ok to not be where you planned to be. As long as you don't stay dormant. Things almost never go how they're supposed to, and guess what? that's ok. Just keep pushing, praying, and staying persistent and things will get better.
I really hope this blog helped someone. This topic has been on my heart for a while and today I decided I'll type out my thoughts and feelings and possibly help someone in the process. I'm not going to say y'all will get a blog update every week, but you will receive a few during the month. So, until next time my loves.